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Alive

I’m alright. Those are probably two of my favourite words; I love them more than ‘I love you’ or ‘Please eat’ or ‘Welcome’ or ‘I’ve been thinking about you’. Those are all lovely words, in those specific combinations, but ‘I’m […]

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Brilliant little nuggets

“Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved […]

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Today I Am Not

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Toast & Tolerance

There was a time I cared enough to question it, when they said that things would get better. Where is eventually’s address? And are we there yet? Are we there yet? Sitting tracing circles on the smoky windows of memory, […]

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Pain – A Look Back

Written on September 16th, 2003 – Based on a conversation with a friend (referred to in this post as ‘you’). I think my failing, my utter failing, is my tendency to feel as much as I can, whether it is […]

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Thank you, Depression. (Part II)

  This is the second part of a two-part post about my battle with depression. You can find the first post here.   I was not gone. I know that now. But for a long time, I didn’t. For three […]

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Thank you, Depression. (Part I)

  This is the first part of a two-part post about my battle with depression. You can find the second post here.   The voice is sly and wheedling; if it weren’t for the actual words it would sound almost […]

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